What a "car" day...

It was a cool evening when i got a sms from Najat."Hey,im onda way to curve.Just informing incs ure there"

Sweet,I was in Cempaka at that time and i didnt know what to do after that so yeah i though of going to the curve to see my pet sister,Najat Amer Nordin.The plan was then made.I was suppose to meet Zainul at the side of Bangsar Shopping Centre so then we can convoy and go to the curve together.

That was when the first "car" day happened.

I was talking on the phone while driving to Bangsar Shopping Centre when suddenly the car in front of my made an emergency stop as the car from the next lane just shoot out without stopping.Okay,so yeah i had to do an emergency break which i did and the result was feeling a great sense of impact as the car behind me bang my car.I was shocked,This was the first time that it happened to me.Was my car dented already?How am i going to settle with him?thoughts came rushing through my mind.

I drove on,slowly this time to signal the car to stop somewhere so that we can check the damage and talk about ways to settle it.Well,Guess what?The car just ran away to the other lane and proceed going to PJ while i was down gonig to Bangsar.Yeah,you can say that i was pretty pissed that time.I then rushed to Bangsar Shopping Centre to check the damage that was done to my car.Hmm,There wasn't any dent at all..Good for that guy and good for me too.I didn't memorize his number plate.

So yeah,i then proceed by following Zainul from the back to go the Curve.Halfway through,i received a phone call.The name Idzmil House was flashing on my handphone so i picked up.

"I am going to the curve"
"Really?can you pick me up?"
"why don't you drive?"
"I am feeling lazy today"
"I am going to Breakerz after that"
"Okay,but you got to send me back"
"Set,I am passing by Pizza hut,see you soon."

So then i called Zainul and told him to go to Idzmil's house first.He came inside my car and then before we know it were were on our way to the Curve.While driving,Idzmil suddenly put on his seat belt.I looked ahead and i figured out why,There was this huge police check going on so i tried putting on my seat belt too but it failed,The police saw me and stop my car ushering me to the side and calling a Police officer to talk to me

This is the direct conversations

Police:Boleh tunjuk licence kamu?
Me:Nak ic juga tak?
Police:Yah,bagi i.c dan licence.
*gives him my ic and licence*
Police:Oh you tak pakai tali keledar,Kamu tau tak kalau saya bagi sama kamu ni sudah bahaya sebab kamu masih P lagi
Me:Yah,Saya tau.
Police:You kerja sbg apa?
Me:Saya ni student,HELP institute
Police:Oh okay,kalau saya saman sekarang licence kamu bahaya sebab kamu masih P
Me:Yah,Saya tau
Police:Kamu dah belanja banyak kan untuk dapat ini,berepa tempoh lagi P kamu
Me:Tu bang,1 tahun lagi.
Police:Oh okay,saya tulis saman kamu ah.
Me:wei bang,boleh tolong ah?
*The police look on his left and right while asking me,Tolong apa?*
Me:Saya bagi bang rm50 ah.
*I proceed in taking out the money from my wallet*
Idzmil:Chill joe chill...dont show him the money first
*The boss police came behind the police which the police knew his boss was observing him so he prolonged the conversation*
Police:Kamu tau tak,kalau saya saman kamu,Licence kamu ni boleh ditanggung.(that was his 3rd time)
Me:Yah,saya tau
Police:You tak pakai tali kelendar kan
Me:Yah...
*The boss police walks away*
Police:ok sorry tadi boss saya ada kat belakang saya
*He puts his hand inside my car and and said....*
Cepat cepat cepat!
*I gave him the rm50*
*he put it inside his pocket in an instance*
Police:Ok,pakai tali keledar ah!
Me:Boleh bang,thank you
Idzmil:Ok thank you bang

*We left the place laughing like mad cows after seeing the police impression when taking the money*

What a "Car" day huh...Police Diraja Malaysia acting like that.It is a good thing that they can be bribe at times.It certainly saved me alot of troubles.It certainly did.It was my first time experiencing this kind of things.But hey,There is always a first time to everything.It was worth hearing all the stories my friend told me,At least i knew what to do in that situation :)




"Our greatest weakness lies in giving up.The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time"

She is somewhat special...

How can you explain something you cannot see but can only feel?How can you describe something that sometimes cannot be described?How can you see illusion?

There will always be a girl,There will always be one.She's beautiful in every aspect,in terms of attitude and personality.Far way different from others,way different.I dont know how she does this to me,But simple words stir things from deep within.The feeling of confusion,excitement and joy.

Strange as it is,she has a special effect on me.I don't know how it happens but i feel the strong attraction towards her.Every glance that i made towards her makes my heart beat faster.There is just something about her that i just cant get my hands to it.

The way she does things,the way she talks,What a joy to see what a joy to watch.Never have i felt something like this,never have i.The truth is there for me to witness but reality keeps knocking on my door.

"Wake up!Wake up!"was i dreaming about her again?Yes i was.

It is hard to trust people these days,i know.Men especially with all the false sweet words that they utter when they know that they don't mean thing they say.How sad it is that a few of them or should i say,alot of them shatter the image of every man out there.It is a real sad thing.I know this,I also know that because of this she didn't trust my every word.It is understandable,It sure is.Afterall,I am a guy too.If she only knew that every word i said to her is true,i cant again,describe how i will feel.

The joy of seeing her smiling and being happy cannot be described,The feeling of sadness creeping around me when i see her sad also cannot be described.But what am i?what can i do to make her smile when my every word are not being fully trust.I cannot do anything,so i observe.I stand there,looking at her,Maybe people were thinking that i was being oblivious again,But it's okay.I will just be an observer,I will just be a dreamer,i will just be her stargazer.

Then again,I cannot explain the feelings that i am having,it is such a wonderful feeling that is mixed with many different type of emotions.It cannot be seen but it surely can be felt.It's like a something,something that i just cannot explain.Then again,Who can?

Could you?

I guess not,I guess i am not the only one.


She is different.She is herself.No matter what i do,be it that i am finding words in the dictionary or finding it elsewhere.There is just no word that can describe her.Then again,words are words.They are not all that great,they cannot describe everything.Feeling and sense beats them all the time.I always have my hope and faith,so i will wait She is a girl that i am willing to wait for forever."Faith keeps a man who keeps his faith".She is the girl that i know that will make me happy.

She is somewhat special.



"Faith is like electricty,You can't see it but you can see the light"

Memories and the wall

It was a silent night,to me at least.I was laying down on my bed while staring blankly at the wall.The wall was of course still,and so was i.I just wish it could talk and move to break the silence which was getting to me.It is just such a waste it couldnt do that.I just needed somebody at that time to talk to,to laugh with and to share things with.Memories were already at the back of my mind,waiting for me to visualize things that were considered sweet or bitter which i can say has already been done.

It started,Every memory flashed back one by one.From the time when i was a kid running around in the rain,having picnics in the car with my cousin during heavy rain to times when i accidentally cut myself with a knife and back to times when i felt so down as a kid.High school memories then came into the picture.The fun stuff which i did with my friends,the things we did that we regretted doing and those frequent fun things we do in school when all of my friends are together.

Sure,i can't turn time back to those times.I am only human after all...only human.The memories which i recalled were more than just what i said above,in short it was memories that i remembered for the past 18 years in my life.It was such a moment that i felt a teardrop rolling down my cheeks.I am not a perfect person,No one is.I kept telling myself or the wall you can say,I tried my best to be perfect but no one is perfect.If i was given a chance,i sure will turn time back to adjust everything again but hey,Sometimes,making mistakes is the best thing a person can do.I am not a pessimist,infact i am an optimist.That,i can humbly but proudly say i am.

So there was no one there that i could see to witness this,but the wall.I stared blankly at the wall again."It is such a lonely world to me now"i kept telling myself.I tried every way to comfort myself from the silent night that was getting to me again.As the clock ticks away at what i would say would be at an awfully unusual slow speed,I stood up and walk to the mirror looking at nothing but my reflection."Who are you actually?"i asked myself."What type of person am i looking at?"i asked myself again only to be answered by my subconcious mind.
After looking at my reflection and thinking about things for awhile,i smiled.Why?thats for me to know =)

There is just something so special about tonight.I can't describe how i feel or why am i feeling it.All i can do was just sitting down while being mesmerised by what i think would be the night that i will never forget.

But there is one thing for sure,Memories are priceless.



"People come to me and say why,i look at them back and say why not?"